HERE WE GO AGAIN..

When I'm in the process of moving on and trying to forget everything.. Here he goes, trying to make me remember all the things I wanted to forget.

Why now? When I'm already trying my best to stay away from you and not expect anything from you.. When I already started to establish a new feeling for somebody else.. When I have already given up and accepted that there will never be the word, "US". Are you doing it on purpose? or you're just too insensitive?

Yeah, those are just simple words.. but to me, it has great impact. For crying out loud, I've got a crush on you before.. or maybe up to now. So please, just stay away.. I can't handle another heartbreak, not at this moment.. Not anymore.

IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY...

Just this evening, I've seen myself a year ago.. It was this the same day that I've been looking forward for four years and finally that day finally came. I was gracefully marching in the center aisle, holding that sash in my right arm and maintaining my posture until I reach my seat.. AHHHH.. HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATION DAY.. Seems like yesterday..

Today is the graduation rites of my beloved high school alma mater.. but this time, I won't be taking that march anymore. A new set of batch will be given honor and pride for another achievement that they've made. I keep on telling my mom, "Last year, we were all busy for this very same day.." Last year seems like yesterday.. I cannot imagine that time flies so fast.. so fast that I haven't noticed what's happening in my life anymore. In a day or two, I don't know what will happen to me.. Sigh..

Anyways, I'd like to congratulate the new graduates of this year's batch. Good luck as you take another journey in you life.

AHH.. AT LAST..

After the busy week, comes relaxation.. :) Yeah, I just survived hell-week. Thank God. I was finally able to submit our Speech exams this afternoon. Went to the Barangay for an ocular visit for documentation purposes.. And ahhh.. Finally got home. So now, I can rest my sleepy head in my comfy bed for as long as I want to.

SUMMER will be another monotonous season for me.. But who cares? As long as I have enough sleep and food. XD

Goals this summer:

• Apply for a part-time job
• Loose wait.. Kill excess fats and unwanted cholesterols..
• Make lots and lots of designs.. for future use.
• Spend more time with my family..
• Celebrate my 17th birthday
• Surprise someone.. ^_^
  
• and I'll leave this space for future plans. :3

Goodnight my beloved readers. Thank you for reading my endless rants.. XD

OOOH HELLOOOO SUMMER! 8D

Yey! It's summer once again.. There are only three things I'm looking forward to this Summer.. SLEEP, My 17th Birthday and My Dad's Arrival from Saudi Arabia.. There'll be lots of pasalubongs, I hope. :)

Any plans this summer?


Err.. I don't know.. I do not have any summer getaway plans though.. I'm considering the budget. I cannot just spend my money with just one vacation... you know. But I'm really thinking of going to Cebu, but I guess it's impossible for now.. Haha. Alright, this summer I'm going to apply for a part-time job. I hope I get accepted.. I need some moolahss. XD

On the other hand, I'm planning to celebrate my birthday in a very unusual way.. Honestly I wanted to have a children's party theme for my birthday.. but my guests will be people of the same age as mine.. I just want to reminisce some of my childhood memories.. it's nice to be a kid you know. Sigh.. Anyways, whatever happens on my birthday, I'd still be thankful for it. :)

PS May 3 is my birthday. In case you wanted to send me some gifts, you can contact me. Mwehehe. :3

I GET IT..

I get it.. the feeling's not that strong enough to stay and hold on. Maybe I just find you attractive after all. But that's it. No emotions attached.

After you broke the news, honestly I didn't know how to react. Mixed Emotions.. should I be happy for you or be sad for myself. But it has all come clear to me now, it's nothing. There's no reason why I should be raging right now. Anyways, I still admire you though. And oh, that dream about you? Maybe my friend's right. It's just something new, maybe I am not used to it..

I want to jump right now.. I want to be civilized again. Lol. Now that I've confirmed that this is nothing but just a spur of the moment feeling.. I'm happy because I could at least bring back the friendship. Sigh..

MI PAMILYA

The Sayson Clan. Last night (Mar. 19) we celebrated our annual family reunion, The San Jose.. It has been a family tradition practiced for like 73 years already.. Yesssss. That long.. It's in commemoration of the feast of St. Joseph, our family's patron saint.. But it has been a joke within our family that their patron saint was San Miguel (BEER). Lol.

As practiced, there'd be someone who gets the role of Jesus, Mary and Joseph.. They'll be seated in a circular table and they will be fed before the rest of the family members eat.. It's like a "ritual"...

After the eating part, a big bowl will be placed in the middle of the table and that's the time when the family members are going to place money in the bowl (any amount will do).. but before that, you need to "bless" at their hands as a part of the practice.. When all have already given some money, the total amount will be divided among the three. :)

Quite interesting.. right? Lol.

Anyways, I really enjoyed the gathering last night.. For some reasons I'd like to share.. First, because I get to see my cousins.. especially the ones whom I just got close with..

Second, bonding moments with the old acquaintances.. XD

Me, Laarni and Michelle.. and ooh, they're my nieces na. :)

Altair, what are you lookin' at?

with Tito Tongi

Third, the cute babiessss..

My cousin..

My nephew.. i guess? Lol. I'm not sure if he's my cousin
or he's already my nephew..

And this is my cute niece...

The vainest.. Lol.

And the newest addition to the family, Mikee.. :)

Ooo..  nevermind. XD

My sister dear who got her face distorted because she's too tired running
around the huge house.

and of course, there will always be some BLOOPERS. ^_^

TAKE HOME scene no. 1

TAKE HOME scene no. 2

See for yourselves..haha.

I tell you, the best part of being a SAYSON is not about the money, the fame it gives you or whatsoever.. It's the family ties and the closeness of each one of us that brought us all together once again and made this family even stronger for the past 73 years.

That's why I am proud to say, I AM A SAYSON

SAYSON KO YA.. INDI TIKALON..

KUNDI MAPINALANGGA-ON.

THEM.. (SPEECH PEEPS)

I haven't made a blog post for days now.. I've been very busy with some end term stuffs.. Filipino term paper, Speech exams (a movie).. and a lot of effin' things to do that aroused mixed emotions within me for the past week. I'm gonna blog about them.. my newfound friends. We're actually a bunch of irregular students taking up the same English 3 class also known as SPEECH.. Our courses were all mashed up.. IT, ComSci, Pysch, Accountancy, Engineering, HM.. yeah.. name it and we have it. ^_^

If there's one thing I regret the most, it's not knowing them much earlier.. I partly blame our teacher for not giving us some group projects/exam during the prelim and midterm period.. why now? When we all know that we'll all part ways after this course.. Sigh.. They're a bunch of great people who has great outlooks in life. I've had so much fun being with them. At least now I know, I'm normal.. that I don't just spend the rest of my break with my Spectrum Family.. at least it gave me the idea that I am still capable of befriending other people. Haha.

After the Final Shoot.

In one of the scenes.. And oh. by the way, the guy in red is my 2nd cousin..
We just found out about 2 months ago..
(Nahh. not the one with the mustache.. the other one..XD)

While having the CAR scene. Lol.

While waiting for "PINK"..

We've finally finished our so called "MOVIE" and it's all ready for editing and stuffs.. hayy.. Seriously I'm gonna miss them.. Even though I got to know them in a short span. And before anything else, the guy in blue he is our "FOOD SUPPLIER" lol. Thanks Jerald for the snacks and the dinner and the venue and everything. XD

I WILL MISS YOU GUYS!

TITA

I never expected that everything would come at this point. Since I first entered college. I thought  they already know the perks of a college student, the ups and the downs. But I was wrong..

I've been living with her for 16 years.. Sixteen years and maybe, counting..

She was the first person I thought who could hurt me big time (except for my mom), and yeah she just succeeded. Now, I'm trying my best to not associate myself with her anymore. She's like my best friend.. I mean, it's in her where I find comfort sharing my problems and all and I really though she's my "kakampi". But then again, I was wrong..

MABING, I used to call her that way. She's my Mama as well as my Tita. I love her as much as I love my mom. I cannot afford losing her. But hearing those painful words from her crashed my own understanding of the word, love and family. I don't even know if I still have a family after this. Because honestly, I don't feel like I belong to one.

Mabing, I'm sorry if I've been so stubborn and stupid and everything. I just don't know how to please all of you.. I mean you, Mommy, Mama, Tito Boy and all of our family members. Even though I exert too much effort just to make you proud, I feel like it's just not enough. I'm sorry for being such a big disappointment and all. I'm sorry for hurting you.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being so inconsiderate. I just have lots of things to say sorry for.

Thank you for being there with me. Thank you for the understanding, the love, and the care.

Now, I'll be off your way. I'll try to be independent enough. I've caused you too much trouble and I've ruined your life. I've been a nuisance this past few years. I know that.. and I'm sorry if I'm like that.

As you always say, I'm like my biological father. Maybe you're right after all. Don't worry, I'll go find him when I have enough cash and time so I'll confirm it myself. And when that time comes, I don't know if I could still bear the pain. And when I get to realize that I am so much like my father, then I'll be off your lives, I guess. Because I've been a pain in the ass for so long now. I'm sorry once again.

I love you.. and I always will.

I love you, Ma Bing.

WHILE WORKING

Zombie land is not always WORK, WORK and WORK.. Of course, we also know how to have fun. Yeah, speaking of fun.. While working a while ago, took a short break and opened the Crystal Eye software and took some silly shots from the laptop's webcam.. So here it is:

 

 I'M SOOOO SLEEPY LIKE YEAHHH...

CORNETTO PLEASE?

JAYRICK LYING ON THE FLOOOOOR

HEY.. CTC? ASL? 91, BI, MARS ^_^

I LOOK STUPID.

WAAAAH?

YESS. DAW WALA LANG MOCK BOARD BWAS!

DO NOT DISTURB.. WATCHING PORN!

UNDER A BLANKET. XD

SSSSHHH..

MY HAIR IS A TOTAL MESSS MEHN.

LAST SHOT

Off to the shower room now. XD

Bye bye!

HEY THERE

Time check: 4:53AM

I've been awake for almost 24 hours now. Waiting for the clock to strike 5. I'll be preparing for our NSTP Mangrove Planting and Coastal Clean-up Activity by 6:30 AM. Yeah, checked in at Zombie Land once again. Still doing stuffs for the March Magazine. I'm a bit worried for our activity later. It'll be in the beach... Water... Waves.. I bet you can guess what I'm actually thinking right now. Tsunami. I know it's far from our place, but what if? Just what if? I hope not. (Knock on the wood). Yeah, I'm being paranoid right now.. Just thinking of the possible things that might happen in real life.

This is real life. I want to live it to the fullest.. I need more time. So, Dear God.. Please, protect the world. Protect us.. Keep us away from harm.

PS I feel so sleepy right now. I look damn tired.

Yahh! I look like a loser. XD