MI PAMILYA

The Sayson Clan. Last night (Mar. 19) we celebrated our annual family reunion, The San Jose.. It has been a family tradition practiced for like 73 years already.. Yesssss. That long.. It's in commemoration of the feast of St. Joseph, our family's patron saint.. But it has been a joke within our family that their patron saint was San Miguel (BEER). Lol.

As practiced, there'd be someone who gets the role of Jesus, Mary and Joseph.. They'll be seated in a circular table and they will be fed before the rest of the family members eat.. It's like a "ritual"...

After the eating part, a big bowl will be placed in the middle of the table and that's the time when the family members are going to place money in the bowl (any amount will do).. but before that, you need to "bless" at their hands as a part of the practice.. When all have already given some money, the total amount will be divided among the three. :)

Quite interesting.. right? Lol.

Anyways, I really enjoyed the gathering last night.. For some reasons I'd like to share.. First, because I get to see my cousins.. especially the ones whom I just got close with..

Second, bonding moments with the old acquaintances.. XD

Me, Laarni and Michelle.. and ooh, they're my nieces na. :)

Altair, what are you lookin' at?

with Tito Tongi

Third, the cute babiessss..

My cousin..

My nephew.. i guess? Lol. I'm not sure if he's my cousin
or he's already my nephew..

And this is my cute niece...

The vainest.. Lol.

And the newest addition to the family, Mikee.. :)

Ooo..  nevermind. XD

My sister dear who got her face distorted because she's too tired running
around the huge house.

and of course, there will always be some BLOOPERS. ^_^

TAKE HOME scene no. 1

TAKE HOME scene no. 2

See for yourselves..haha.

I tell you, the best part of being a SAYSON is not about the money, the fame it gives you or whatsoever.. It's the family ties and the closeness of each one of us that brought us all together once again and made this family even stronger for the past 73 years.

That's why I am proud to say, I AM A SAYSON

SAYSON KO YA.. INDI TIKALON..

KUNDI MAPINALANGGA-ON.

TITA

I never expected that everything would come at this point. Since I first entered college. I thought  they already know the perks of a college student, the ups and the downs. But I was wrong..

I've been living with her for 16 years.. Sixteen years and maybe, counting..

She was the first person I thought who could hurt me big time (except for my mom), and yeah she just succeeded. Now, I'm trying my best to not associate myself with her anymore. She's like my best friend.. I mean, it's in her where I find comfort sharing my problems and all and I really though she's my "kakampi". But then again, I was wrong..

MABING, I used to call her that way. She's my Mama as well as my Tita. I love her as much as I love my mom. I cannot afford losing her. But hearing those painful words from her crashed my own understanding of the word, love and family. I don't even know if I still have a family after this. Because honestly, I don't feel like I belong to one.

Mabing, I'm sorry if I've been so stubborn and stupid and everything. I just don't know how to please all of you.. I mean you, Mommy, Mama, Tito Boy and all of our family members. Even though I exert too much effort just to make you proud, I feel like it's just not enough. I'm sorry for being such a big disappointment and all. I'm sorry for hurting you.. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being so inconsiderate. I just have lots of things to say sorry for.

Thank you for being there with me. Thank you for the understanding, the love, and the care.

Now, I'll be off your way. I'll try to be independent enough. I've caused you too much trouble and I've ruined your life. I've been a nuisance this past few years. I know that.. and I'm sorry if I'm like that.

As you always say, I'm like my biological father. Maybe you're right after all. Don't worry, I'll go find him when I have enough cash and time so I'll confirm it myself. And when that time comes, I don't know if I could still bear the pain. And when I get to realize that I am so much like my father, then I'll be off your lives, I guess. Because I've been a pain in the ass for so long now. I'm sorry once again.

I love you.. and I always will.

I love you, Ma Bing.

See? It's Easy to Fake A Smile =)

"Never be deceived by someone's smile.. "

This night, something terrible happened. Terrible in a way that it made me burst out into tears. I hate them.. at the moment, they're the last person I'll be with. While having dinner, my aunt reminded me about my frequent overnight stays here in the office (Helloo!! I've been doing this since July.. you're not here most of the time that's why you're not used to it!). I just remained silent throughout the dinner.. I just don't want to utter any words as possible. I was just too hurt to speak.. I hated them.. I hate them all.

I thought they will be the first one to understand that art is my passion.. I love what I'm doing, and being a part of this publication made me seen my worth. They have no idea how much I'm willing to go through just to stay in this pub.. and then what? They'll ask me to quit because they just wanted to? Get lost.

Then I remembered.. why am I doing this.. not for myself, but I am doing this for them. This is the only way I know to make them feel proud of me.. I wanted them to see my real talent, my passion for art. Hey beloved family, in case you don't know.. I LOVE ART, and you've got nothing to do with it.. deal with it. I'm an artist.. maybe, just maybe I got this from my biological father. Well thanks to him, at least I know how to appreciate myself and my capabilities. While you were so busy killing me emotionally.

So are you happy now? Wait.. don't rejoice yet. Because for the first time in our family's history, I will be your worst blacksheep. I won't just nod and say yes to whatever you want.. I have a mind of my own. Maybe you're right, I'm like my biological father.. I'm a Pampangueña.. just like Ronnie De Vera Sanchez. Meet your worst niece, Judy Rose Lauron Sayson Sanchez. (I should've carried my biological dad's name.. it sounds cool.)

I hope tomorrow, when I wake up.. you'll be just a dream.. a very very ugly dream. Because I don't want to completely hate you, and I don't want to hate my existence either.