I'm back!

After 3 months... I've blogged again! :)

I'm sorry blogger, I betrayed you. I got so hooked up with my tumblr account once again. But now, I'm really really back! Yay!

So the last three months I've been busy. If not, I'm too tired or too lazy to blog. If not, maybe I forgot. Teehee.

More updates soon! I miss you blogger! XD

Hhhhii!! :)

A Reward for Myself

I deserve this. I think? :) Anyways, I really make sure to buy something from my part time job allowance, it's a sort of remembrance and yeah, a reward. When I first received my allowance, I bought this book I've been eyeing for weeks: Sundays at Tiffany's written by James Patterson. I didn't regret buying that book, totally worth it.

Sorry, I don't have the picture of the actual book~
It's with Dazen at the moment. :)

Second, I bought a shirt from Giordano. The design was actually made by my very good friend, Juko. He joined Giordano's Typography Tee contest with the theme: World Without Strangers, and luckily his work was included in the Top 7 finalists and was later on sold in the market. Congrats BB!

There you go, I'm wearing it right now. Lol~
Amazing, my shirt size is Small. O.O

It really feels good to buy something for yourself every once in a while. If you think you deserve it, then go for it. But always remember to save a little something for contingency purposes. You'll never know right?

Next on my list: That teal sleeveless blouse at Robinsons. XD

Them: ZOMBIES

I've probably blogged about them a thousand times already, but I don't mind. Really. I don't mind getting my blog photo-spammed by these individuals.

Just want to share this random moment we had last time (Last Wednesday). We're bored, so we had this so called photo shoot. XD If you really consider it as one.

The best thing about being with them is that you'll never stop laughing. Dramas aren't welcome in the club, loljk.  How can you possibly emote when the others make funny faces like mad people? Ikadlaw nalang na.


I've spent most of my time in school with these people and life was never boring. Promise. :)

Lemme end this post through this photo. We will miss you Manang Epi!

Going for FILM: Holga Lomo

Just a thought. While most of the people nowadays are obsessing over Photography (owning an expensive DSLR and taking random shots of almost everything that's what Photography means nowadays, lol), I might as well try it the old way, using film. I don't know why, but I really am amazed with Film Photographers (but I'm still amazed by SOME Digital Photographers not to mention *ehem*).

Film brings you a lot of excitement. From placing your film inside your camera, to taking careful, awesome shots and having it developed like a boss! That feeling once you've seen your outputs, ahhh heaven.

So at the moment, I'm still looking for a very good but cheap camera (lol, I don't have enough budget). I tried to ask some friends whose also a film photoG enthusiasts and they suggested that I should try the Lomo Camera.. They've given me websites to where I can buy one and here's what I found:

HOLGA 120 GN

It's cute and cheap, it costs around 2000 I guess.. plus the films maybe it'd run to 2500 shipping fee is FREE. I'll buy the flash next time, if I can save up enough money again. Hopefully next week, I can have this baby. Holga, wait for me okay? We'll be having so much fun. Soon. XD

I Started Digital "Drawing"

I never thought that I'd be able to this crap! Well, I didn't start from scratch though, I had this so called, "model" where I base my angles and right projection of my subject (dafuq?).

Anyways, I'm so happy for I was able to try something new (well, it is.. because it's my first decent artwork).

I'll enroll myself in an art class this summer, it's official. Lim Guan, wait for me. (Lim Guan offers art lessons- its famous in the city for their lessons and frames)


Let me share to you my first "DigiDrawing". :) So happy I could die.

Btw, I did it for a contribution for our Literary Folio. A short story needed some illustration, so I gave it a try. Why not, coconut?

FIRST ATTEMPT. I tried to make the clothes a bit sophisticated, fail.

REVISION I. I decided that she'd be wearing a "flowy" dress instead,
and a pair of boots. Going for a Country Look. Boohoo!

ADDED SOME COLORS. I tried to use this color first since it's my
favorite color. Sorry, I'm color-biased. Lol. :)

PINK. Finally settled with pink for the dress color, it's more girly.
Fail attempt at the colors though, I can't achieve the "painting" effect.
I NEED MORE PRACTICE. K.

That's it, tomorrow I'll be posting the Final Output in colored and Black and White. :)

Goodnight!

A Leap Year Experience

Today's just another ordinary day but with extraordinary "happenings". February 29 felt so right. It's like everything's into its right place, perfect timing, proper setting. My lucky day (Well, Wednesday is usually my lucky day).

Let me tell you why my day seemed so lucky.

• Around 1 AM, we talked. I mean, chatted. We talked about his pictures, about my promise (on May) and some random stuff. After several days, he talked to me again. That's the best thing about it. Started my day right! Yay! Now time for bed.
  
• I woke up at around 5:45 AM. After several attempts of waking up early to jog, I finally did it! 10 Laps, not bad for starters.
  
• I'm comfortable with my outfit, that's a plus.
  
• I went to my cousin's dental clinic (which by the way offers me a part time job) to do some minor adjustments in the layout and wollah, PAYDAY!|
  
• I went back to school and I saw my other crush. Lee Min Ho look alike.
  
• Had a pizza date with Epi, Coleen, Dazen and Irene. /wrist I just jogged this morning. Must double time tmrw.
  
• Watched "The Vow" starring Channing Tatum and Rachel McAdams. We've been waiting for this movie since December. :) Channing's abs was a super plus plus.
  
• And my "childhood playmate" sort of interacted with me again. Lol.

So many things happened today. I really love my February 29. :) Goodnight!

Something for Today

THIS. We should put this in mind all the time. Time has its own game, we never know the rules. We have no idea when will our time's going to end. While we still can say it and while they still can hear it, why not say it out loud? Why not tell them we love them? Does that make us less of a human when we say those three letter words? Guess not.

Think I should do this more often, one way to patch up my relationship with the people here in our house. I guess we've gone too far and I want things to be back the way it is before. So yeah, I love you. There, I said it. :) I'm still alive though.

Just a little Reminder

I need to remind myself more often. "Don't get TOO attached". Well maybe at least reserve a little space for goodbyes, for separation, for the so called word... Leaving. People come and go, at the end of the day it'll just be you alone. None of your friends can make you feel better except yourself.

Lately, I've been hearing a lot of "goodbyes". I've seen people leave, and that's the saddest part of life, goodbyes. Problem with me is, I trusted them too much. I thought they'd make it to the end. But they didn't. They suddenly gave up. Some left to try other stuff. Some just really left with no reasons at all. You know what's sad? I learned to value them, I allowed them to be a part of my life.

Well, I decided... more likely, realized. I must prepare myself for things such as goodbyes, so that it will be less painful when it was actually happening. At least I expected it right? Again, "Don't get attached"... Yeah, must remind myself always.

Something's Wrong With Me

Lately, I've been too emotional and I cannot pinpoint the reason why I'm acting this way.

If it's still about that Identity Thingy, I should've got myself used to that. But as days went by, I am becoming aware of the things that's happening around me. A lot of things happened lately and I have no idea how I should be handling them. Look, I am not a pro at this (no one is, I guess?).

I don't know if I'm being too paranoid. I don't know if there really is a problem. I don't know if there's something to worry about. In short, I don't know a single damn thing at all, and it makes me feel so stupid. It makes me realize how ignorant I was. Sigh.

And guess what, at this point I really wish my friends were there. My "matured" friends I mean. I tried to text them, no reply. I guess, they're busy with their own lives too. Sorry for bothering. For now, I'll just... well yeah, pray. Maybe, I need to spend a day with Him once again. I miss talking to Him. :)

Thank you Irene, for listening. Though you always claim that you're not expert at this. Still, I thank God for giving me a best friend like you who never got tired of me. Wushooo. Drama. Hahaha. :)

Goodnight Mortals.

A Rush Project

This afternoon, I was tasked to make a Promotional Poster for our Variety show on the 24th (it's an end-term project for our Art & Business of Entertainment subject) due: tomorrow. Drat!

For hours, I was brain drained. My creative juices won't work (if ever I really have some of those "juices"). And I was having a terrible headache, not even a 2-serving Chicken Fillet meal can cure it. I was practically cursing to death. Pardon my French dear friends. :(

So, after hours and hours of deleting, adding, and well yeah hiding layers... here's what I've come up.

Not as Party-ish as it may look like. Sorry, that's all I could ever think of. My mind's been dysfunctional lately and I'm a little less inspired.

And did I mentioned that I still have to do the tickets? Yeah, this one's kinda easy since I just need to transfer some layers to a new blank canvass. :) So here it is.

That's it. :) Honestly, I like the ticket more than the poster. I dunno why. Haha.

Good thing I have this new book, so it kept me from boredom while waiting for our shitty PC to load (I wish I was in the office). It's 3:12 AM. I must pack my stuff for Guihulngan tomorrow, and maybe grab some sleep. Night!

Tomorrow is Valentines Day. Wait, what?

Oh, Bitters' Day you mean. That's our term for February 14- Bitters' Day, Independence Day, Singles Awareness Day (SAD), or another ordinary Tuesday. Who the hell labeled the fourteenth day of February as the day for lovers? I demand a very good explanation. Anyways, why is everybody (including me) making a big deal out of it?

You're single, you don't have a date... does that make you an illegal alien or something? Don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Go out with your friends! That's more fun, the more the merrier. We actually did that last year, and know what? That's the best Feb. 14 celebration so far.

Well, I hope everyone's gonna enjoy their day tomorrow. Let's just hope for the best. With or without love life, life goes on.

Goodnight!

First Artwork for 2012

While waiting for Dazen to finish writing her short story, I got bored so I decided to play with Photoshop once again. Gahhd, I missed it. Well then, my boredom resulted to this:

Grr. I really should practice doing the facial features. It's sucks. I know. :\

Anyways, gotta go home. Ciao!

Identity Thingy.

I am actually at the state of being curious and confused at the same time. I've reached the point of asking myself who I really am. I thought everything would be just fine. Everything will just go smoothly as it is. But one day, I realized I cannot run away from that fact... my biological father.

Each day, it bothers me. A lot of what ifs come to my mind, and I always end up crying myself to sleep. It hurts to know that he never even bothered to know about his daughter. Seventeen years, I never heard a single word from him. Tsk tsk.. Seventeen years had passed, still no signs of him.

I am not trying to hurt my step dad here. In fact, I love him more than my real dad. It's just that there's something missing.. maybe my identity. A lot of people would say that I got my nose and my complexion from my dad and I've seen it in pictures too, and yeah.. they're quite right.

Weeks ago, I've made up my mind. I'll start looking for him before I turn eighteen. I'm beginning to hate myself everyday and I don't think that'd be healthy. I hated all the people in our house well maybe because I do have trust and identity issues. Honestly, I don't know who to trust in this house anymore. It's like everybody's too busy to even care about me.

At this moment, I really feel so lost. I don't know how to start this search or where to start looking for him. All I have is his name and his picture. Other details? I'm totally clueless.

For now, I'll keep on praying. I hope one day, He'll be able to give me some answers.. I hope to find you, Papa. I have lots of questions that only you can give the answer. First thing would be, why did you leave us?


My biological father's name is Ronnie De Vera Sanchez
He is from Pampanga.
Once worked in Baguio (Royal London Circus)
~where he actually met my mom.
[any help will be appreciated] :)

MAY Three to Six

Yes. Just in time for my birthday. I really hope I could come and attend that event once again. It's like a birthday treat slash seminar. I bet they'll be having badass speakers on graphic design, it's their forte anyways.

Seriously I really would like to come.. for certain reasons I cannot share. There are 3 reasons actually. And hopefully, that wish will be granted. *Fingers crossed.

Will blog soon.

Jam-packed December!

Right. I haven't blogged for weeks now. Sorry. I just don't feel like blogging about anything. Yeah. Anyways, before the year's finally over, I'd like to share with you how I spent the last month of the year. Yeaboi.

December 1st- we're kinda busy with the RE:Design talk with our Speakers from Mayad Studios, Ms. Marga and Sir Fiel (ooops, I'll upload a picture soon) and of course a talk on Graphic Design by our design inspiration and idol, Mr. Dan Matutina. Yeah, I've met him before during Graphika Manila 2011 but that was just a short encounter. I was so star struck upon seeing him O_O. This guy is really awesome to the bones! Ang saya niyang kasama, cooool! Some of my colleagues even said he's soooo "cute"! Hahaha.. 

A very good way to start my December. Oyeah.. and here's our photo:

With The Dan Matutina! O_O

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Then, a week before exams.. we're soo busy with the December issue of our Newspaper. Instead of facing our books for the upcoming exams, we stayed up late just to finish our Newspaper, and it was good! :)

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December 16-24, 2011

Well, I'm proud to say that I've completed the 9 Mornings or also known as the Simbang Gabi, Misa de Gallo or the Dawn Masses... and I've already made my wish. (Lord please? Sana matupad...)

The best thing about this week was when my cousin told me that I'm going to be a Tita soon. Yep, she's preggy 2 months and 2 weeks. Yey!! I can't wait to see my neice/nephew soooonest! Congratulations Manang and Manong! :D

December 25, 2011

Celebrated Christmas with my Family and our adopted, Manang Cherai. Hahaha. :) As usual, pig out day for all of us and we all ended up with bloated tummies! Good times!

December 26, 2011

Spent the rest of the afternoon at Fatima's house with some of my girl friends. Talked about almost everything that comes to our mind, ate, and watched Disney's Geek Charming. Played with the camera, and here are some photos:

L-R: Fatima, Irene, Jane, yours truly

December 29, 2011

We attended my uncle's wedding. Aww. :) I really love weddings.. and the part where two people promised to love each other forever is the best. Congratulations Tito Archie and Tita Kristine! Welcome to the Family Tita Kristine. :) (booo! the pictures were dark)

With my cousins and my niece, the little girl over there. :D

The Saysons. Oyeah!

December 30, 2011

High School Alumni Homecoming!! :) Ahh, it's nice to be back.. Visited my high school alma mater once again, and I've missed it.. and of course, my high school friends. :)

Psh. Sorry for the low quality photo. It's taken from my phone.
None of us brought a camera. Pffft~
L-R: Gabby, Fatima, Ginnen, Me, Lyn
~natabunan si Jane! XD

December 31, 2011

Today. Prepared foods for medya noche later. Cooked ispageti, mom's pork recipe, and made my specialty: Mango Float! Yay!

So before the year finally ends, let me tell you this... 2011 has been great and allow me to greet you:

Happy New Year to y'all.

Have a great 2012 ahead!

I didn't see this coming..

At one point I'm too happy. My happiness is overflowing (as in over over).. and suddenly it was all taken away. Fck life. Fck the world.

I really don' t know what to feel upon knowing that from you. I was too happy to even see this coming. Sure, I expected this (fuck, I actually didn't). But why now? Maybe in a way, t'was my fault. I was the one who brought that up, then maybe I am suffering its consequences.

Problem is, you make me happy. Really really happy. And at the moment, you're the one who gives me something to look forward to everyday (cheesy as it may sound, but it's true). This week was supposed to be a happy week, but why all of a sudden everything changed?

Ouch. Aray. Sorry for acting like this. I have no right to act like this, but I don't know how to deal with it. I really don't know how.

Can somebody take my heart for a while? I really don't want to feel anything at the moment. No, actually forever. If that's possible. I don't want this kind of feeling. I should be happy, for everybody.. so everything will be fine (even though it's the other way around).

In Ilonggo, Gagu simo. Sakit to ya! Yogs. tama na ni ah. Leche. *Pardon my French but I really don't know what to feel right now. Sorry. :(

Baby Oh!

Isn't she cute??

This adorable kid made my day plus my BB. :) We saw her while passing by the sidewalks of downtown. I guess she's the daughter of one of the fruit vendors there. Eeeeeep!! Charming little (I mean big) baby!!

Ang batang "game na game"

Her dad said, "Puno na na ka reject nga prutas"
(her body's filled with fruit rejects) which is a joke btw.

Omnomnom!

Yumm!

I hope someday my daughter will be as cute as her (someday = 10 to 15 years from now).

Fellowship Sample Logo Design

Actually I am not the one assigned to make the logo for the fellowship.. but I guess out of boredom, I tried to make a "mock" logo. Haha. Sorry, I have to be biased with the color blue (favorite color XD). So here's one of the sample design I made.

I know it's too plain but I really got carried away with the colors.. so I decided to finish it. :)

Disclaimer: This is not the official logo. This is the "feeler" logo I made. :P

Goodnight!

Young and Free (Naks!)

Last night, I was bored.. so I decided to make a compilation of our photos for the past months in the publication. I'd like to share it here. This is our life as a Spectre. When we're not working, we do this kind of stuff. This is how we rock and roll. :)

PS Sorry for the crappy editing. I just imported all the photos and pasted it on the story board. No time to organize all of 'em. Haha. :) Enjoy!

Top Five LSS

I dunno but I'm kinda hooked with covers at the moment.. but the original versions were great of course! It's just that, there's something in those covers that made me fall in love with it. Let me share you some of my latest LSS-ses. Haha. :) (Note: Most of them were covers)

FIVE: We'll Be Alright, Bruno Mars (I think the original artist is Travie McCoy but I like Bruno Mars' version)

This song reminds me of The Spectres. Especially the first lines that goes like this: "We are young, we run free, stay up late, we don't sleep, got our friends, got tonight, we'll be alright." I first heard of this song while blog hopping a while ago and I fell in love with it.

FOUR: Someone Like You cover by Nick Pitera.

This guy has talent! Trust me. Listen to his covers and I'm telling you, he's awesome!!

THREE: 1234 by Plain White T's

The lyrics! "There's only one thing, to do, three words for you.. I LOVE YOU."

TWO: Enchanted cover by Megan & Liz (Original artist: Taylor Swift)

This reminds me of my crush! Lol. I like the cover version because I guess I got tired of listening to Taylor's voice. Haha. My office mate has been playing it the whole day since last year and her voice already broke my eardrums! (Well, I'm exaggerating) But, I still love Taylor though and her awesome songs of course.

ONE: Skyscraper cover by Boyce Avenue feat. Megan Nicole (Original artist: Demi Lovato)

I love the song but I'm not a Lovato fan. Sorry fans. :) But I have to agree, she has a really good voice. But I love Boyce Avenue's version the most. Maybe because there's a variation and it's not an all out screamo. Haha. 

PS Megan Nicole is really pretty!! :)

Will update my playlist soon. TTFN! :D